Before Limegreen, I was an Art Production Manager for 11 years. I really enjoyed my job, I would always work with either a design team or play referee between the printers and account managers. Working in a creative design studio, some designers were REALLY corporate and REALLY strict. Some were "Corporate-Cool" but, let's face it, I was hired to do a job and look professional. I knew if I had tattoos that were peaking out from my blazer sleeve, that some clients would be uncomfortable and think that I was UNprofessional.
I would always say in another life I would have tattoos everywhere and cut my hair because in this other life I would have the freedom to express myself without judgment. This had been going on for years and then one day I got a super small tattoo of the letter C — my mother and grandmother both names start with C. After that one tattoo I had a change of heart, I cried so much that I realized, as much as I like the idea of tattoos I couldn’t deal with the pain. But luckily there are such amazing things called henna or temporary tattoos.
The point of this blog is not to say that I wanted a tattoo and couldn’t get it or I wanted orange hair but was too afraid, the point is that I was putting off being me until I felt like it was acceptable by everyone else. I know that I am not the only one who puts off things such as happiness, career goals or even cutting their hair because of fear or judgment.
So a couple weeks ago around 2am I cut my hair, my hand was shaking so much that I was afraid that my haircut would look more like a mullet than my vision. After pacing and telling myself it was OK, my new look emerged and I LOVED IT. I felt so proud of myself for attempting this for the second time, yes I had a similar haircut 5 years ago however I let other peoples opinions sway me to grow it out.
The next morning my head felt cold but I felt brave that I could face anything even other people opinions, good or bad.
LIVE THIS LIFE and BE BRAVE